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10月13日 Wo bin ich?I haven't written a thing for quite a long time. Coz i am still that lazy girl.
Everything is fine, there was happy moment and sometimes i suffered the dreary routine, but it is life. 9月19日 wiesoWieso falle ich schon wieder durch?
Wieso habe ich dafür so viel gemacht und geopfert , falle ich trotzdem durch?
Wieso muss ich so traurig sein?
Wieso bin ich nicht damit zufrieden, obwohl viele Freunde mich trösten mögen, nur weil er nicht bei mir sein kann?
Wieso ist es mir nicht mehr egal was mir eigentlich egal war?
Wieso brauche ich jetzt jmd, wenn ich früher Niemanden brauchte?
Wieso höre ich nicht was ich hören will?
Wieso kann ich nicht etwas erleben was ich schon immer erleben wollte?
Wieso ist es schon so spaet , will ich trotzdem nicht schlafen gehen?
Wieso finde ich Niemanden , der mit mir so lang telefonieren mag bis zum ich schlafen gehe, nur heute abend?
Wieso bin ich nun so schwach?
Wieso frage ich mich so viel, was ich nicht antworten kann?
Ich vermisse die Bei, die noch in der Schule war.
Ich mag sie bald wieder finden. 7月13日 i am ill , i don't like itMisfortunes never come singly, i don't know what's wrong with me in the last two weeks. My bicycle was stolen , i was coincidentally stung by a bee, i dropped my exam of driving license the second time and i catch cold. I baldly want some one who can give comfort to me. I have watched several funny videos, none sense , but it works. : ) 7月5日 failed againI failed my driving licence exam again!! After 2 seconds , i was told that it was done. A car came at the moment that i was driving off and i didn't see it , nothing happened , besides i failed the exam again! I have waitet for the exam for 2 hours and have just driven for 2 seconds!! I really do feel sad and pissed off now, i 'll do it again 2 weeks later, my heart is shaking, and my purse is crying. I have never imagined that i have to do the exam 3 times!! WHAT THE HELL 6月17日 failedI failed my driving licence exam 2 days ago, unbelievable!!! The outcome is absolutely out of my expectation. I was apparently too nervous to behave with calmness. So sad, my beautiful plans!!!!!!!!! are not gonna be accomplished. Except that, i have to pay another 300 Euro for the next exam. God bless me , i can't fail again... It has been raining all day long, i am at home alone , waiting for tomorrow. This week sucks. 5月28日 droopedIt's raining again, and no sign of the end. I was never a girl for the raining days, and i was never used to those gloomy days. It makes me a mixture of melancholy and testy.
I am supposed to be very busy these days , but why i feel so empty. No way to be cheered up . I need some one to talke to , but i can't find one. I keep dreaming again, dreaming of things that i can't explain. I feel alone again , out of the way.
I need to go out, have some fresh air,without getting wet, is it possible, apparently not. Therefore, i see no way out... 4月18日 lovely weekendWonderful weather and wonderful picnic . I even found 6 Eastenchocolateeggs (chocolate easter eggs) on the grass, what a beautiful surprise ^_^ Laid there in the sunshine, no noise from the city , nobody annoyed you. Who occured to this fantastic idea? Must be a sweet person :) 4月4日 just somethingSitting on the chair , looking at the screen, thinking about writing something new on the blog. And it turns out to be :" this Semesterferien sucks." Haven't accomplished any plan and won't make them in the 2 weeks left. So many News, good or bad . Got enough bad News that i am no longer interested in the good ones. I always get around troubles, though they keep coming to me. I was indeed very happy sometimes, however the temporary joy faded. Because as long as you realize that you are gonna lose something or someone forever, you can't really enjoy the time left. Maybe you already lost it , although you don't or are not able to believe it , so far as it is still there where you can see or even be with. Things change, faster than our mind count. No time for response. They are going away, and won't come back again, no matter whether they are still in your mind, no matter whether the good part of the memories still remain. They are gone henceforward, out of reach. You feel helpless , for there is nothing you can do to keep it. At one time you question yourself why it still bothers you ,if it may ever be a mistake to have had it and if you already obtain something more beautiful, something you even treasure more. Once you impress something or someone on your memory, you are not able to erase it. 3月22日 Happy birthday!Happy Birthday to Beib(me) and Lei!!!!!!!!!!!  Haven't eaten birthday cake for years, hopefully i can get one this year.  ------------------- Such a wonderful birthday, room was lightening by so many candles and a heart right there in the middle of the table. Flowers in the bath, i love romance!! I was so happy : ) 2月14日 lonely Valentine's day? No Actually i like Valentine's day, however somehow I couldn't really expect anything. In my memories, i have never enjoyed this lovely day with some one together. 2007,I am waiting for some one, who may spend the day with me. I have even bought chocolate , however i guess , i have to enjoy it alone. So sad. -------Not sad anymore, cos the person that i was waiting for , didn't let me down. ^_^ Really wanna say Thank you. |
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